Really?
How damn hard is it to reply to someone’s message on the internet, like seriously it will be a week since I’v sent something and all I get is a I will reply soon that was last friday…I’m dying here.
Man I am really good at fooling people of just how unhappy I am. I mean holy crap, once I lost my computer I realized how much it distracts me from my real emotions and things in life that I still haven’t dealt with. I am learning in my classes that human require touch in order to be happy, then I realized I have not literally touched another human being in months. The only thing that I have interacted with is my animals. And I just feel like ugly crying. I don’t have the support system I used to have before everyone went off to college and I’v realized I still haven’t dealt with a lot of emotions that I’m sure other people are over. Like the fact that a particular person still comes to mind a lot and I barely even talk to him, and I’m sure I rarely come to his mind anymore I mean it’s been 2 years. I seem to be damn good at bottling up and holding on to emotions than other other normal human being, and the worst part is I am terrible at actually telling people how I feel, because it’s incredibly awkward for me. I mean if I wasn’t as awkward as I am I would have probably told his what is going on, but the fact that we talk abut one every few months doesn’t help that situation. I mean I really feel like I’m losing my mind. I have gotten so upset that I am literally sick to my stomach and don’t feel good. This is normally the start of my spiraling depression episodes, which no one needs to see. And thankfully no one will because there is no one here to see them and I am fairly good at seeming ok. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t know how to deal with these emotions and I don’t think I ever will. I am at a loss here. Sorry for anyone how really doesn’t want to read this but I need to put this some where.
Don’t think I posted this the other day but rarely do I ever end up with anything good from painting. I was super happy with the outcome!
AHH!
So I have my computer back for the moment, or at least a couple days!! It is not fixed and I can’t do anything strenuous on it, because I don’t want to damage it anymore by having it crash again. So I can’t make videos, play games or do anything that may cause it to crash. Anyways it has to be sent into Toshiba because my dad’s friend said they could fix it faster then he could, due to the part being on back order. Plus my dad is going to see if they can upgrade the graphics card so that it doesn’t take so much out on my computer when I watch full screen videos or try to play games. Which could help out a lot!! So my dad is going to call Toshiba tell them whats wrong with it and all that jazz and then we send it off and hopefully it will get fixed quickly because I went 4 days without my computer and holy crap was I bored!!! Plus I am taking 2 online classes which I have to try to do on my dad’s computer which is hard because I can’t sit in my room and do the work I have to sit in his office. Anyways I’m happy that I have it back sad it’s not fixed and that I’m going to have to part with it again :(
Well it’s spring break for me now technically it doesn’t start till Monday but I don’t have class on Fridays so it makes me happier, but the crappy part is I have 2 tests right when I get back. Oh and even better I don’t have my computer and the part that my computer needs is on back order because toshiba sucks ass and apparently a crap load of people have the same problem! So why to suck at life toshiba!! Anyways I’m pretty much bored out of my mind, can’t do makeup tutorials or anything so all I have left is homework and studying on of course spring break. So this pretty much sucks.
Finally got this picture from my dad and I love it, makes me feel a little more content with life and to just live it day by day and try to be happy.
GET INVOLVED. STOP AT NOTHING. THE WORLD MUST KNOW.
I dare you to stop scrolling through your dashboard. Stop checking your Facebook newsfeed that you’ve already checked two seconds ago. Stop updating your Twitter and seeing what your favorite celebrities are saying. Stop watching funny and nonsense videos on Youtube. Take time to educate yourself to MAKE A DIFFERENCE in this world. This is your chance! WATCH THIS VIDEO.
Let’s make JOSEPH KONY Famous!!
Who is JOSEPH KONY?
He is THE WORST LIVING CRIMINAL. He abducts children and makes them use guns to kill their own parents. He takes girls and forces them to be sex slaves. He calls his abducted children the Lord’s Resistance Army, AKA the LRA. He has abducted over 30,000 children and forced them to be child soldiers in Central Africa. He remains at large because he is INVISIBLE to the world. FEW know his name, even FEWER know his crimes. WE ARE MAKING HIM FAMOUS! Because when he is, the world will unite against him and demand his arrest.
We can help make a change. We can make a difference.
I feel so inspired. I feel the need to help and make a difference. This has to happen in 2012. We can’t let him go around and keep doing this to children in Central Africa. Let’s make his name known so he can be stopped. HE CAN NO LONGER BE INVISIBLE!
REBLOG IF YOU CARE.
This will not make your blog ugly, please take a moment to reblog and get the word out. SHARE THIS TO EVERYONE! Be a part of something BIG and when they catch this man, you would be able to say.. “I HELPED.”
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